9.22.2014

Island Grain

35mm | Fuji 400 | Scans by Film Box Lab

This beautiful photo is just one of a ton of magical photos we took on our backpacking trip through Isle Royale National Park this month. I love everything about this photo, especially the grain. 35mm honestly just speaks to me every time I see it. I can't wait to get these printed. 

Anyway, I've been struggling lately with the death of a beautiful friend. Quite honestly just wrapping my mind around how delicate life is in general. how short it is. how fast it's going by. I've felt distant and frustrated. I have found myself contemplating things I never even thought about before. How many tiny little details don't even matter. How much we focus on things that won't make a difference in the big scheme of life. Even reflecting on my own life. Would I be satisfied if I left the earth right now. What would I be remembered for? have I lived loud enough, strong enough, long enough? What would I be described as. Would I be easily forgotten. 

I've always been an emotional person. I make decisions on emotion and really enjoy feeling every feeling no matter how hard or intense it is. So it's with sleepless nights and long days that I feel so many things these days. and I wonder how you can't miss those you've lost every day.